Day 4 of Independence

By the way, I'm probably not going to use numbers to count how long it has been since I left my previous life for this one.

I've begun to force myself to think of time differently than before.

The past is not some archived folder system of memories and places and events left behind like some kind of wake trailing a boat.

The present is not just the place where the past seems to be crash landing, but it's the moment that only truly exists: the very here and now. The moment that just passed, just now, and just now, and just now!

The future? It's the moment that is about to happen, and just did, and just did, and just did!

So, instead of thinking of days as "Tuesday" or "Friday" or the dreaded "Monday", treating every single day equally. I'm not going to attach personalities or vibes or predict how well or how horrible my day is going to be.

I don't have days. I just have a lot of nows.

Everything I share here will be considered part of the documentation of my nows under new circumstances, a new me, a new beginning.

But let me introduce you to the first few nows of my rebirth.

After an emotionally exhausting and exhillirating last two weeks, I attended my going away reception and ended my last day in Venice dancing and drinking and rocking out to some of my favorite bands like Fitter and Fatima.

Saturday and Sunday looked exactly the same: back pain galore and lots of therapy. Looks like decompression is involuntary!

Monday I met with my friend Sal and Jesus for the reunion we have every 3 years. Sal had also changed his life and left it all to start from scratch!

Oh my science! What are the chances?? He says it's providence, I call it life energy. I call it the planet gathering it's prophets, missionaries, and warriors for a final fight.

:)

So the rest of the day was spent with Sal and we've already talked about living together and being business partners in our crazy quest to live like 'normal' people without the comfort of being in places we've invested so much of our love and experience. We are both creative and we both want to continue our lives helping other people achieve fulfillment and joy!

Sunday I did my therapy and had a break through, like I did 3 weeks ago, where I felt my body achieve a relaxation I haven't felt in a long time.. 'cured' myself, but the that allowed energies to flow freely and finally for me to take the plunge and start a new life.

My body started moving back to where I was before and I've been fighting since then to knot return to the shaky ball of twisted muscle I have been in the last few years.

But TODAY, today was the biggest achievement I've had in a very long time. I spent from the morning, around 10am til around 7pm today creating a new body for myself. And I've achieved so much, I feel so close to victory that I can say I feel reborn.

Reborn.

I've been in tears today going through the experience of power and control of my body. The harmony I have been able to achieve.. so simple to achieve when my mind and body are talking directly to each other.

Such an amazing experience I plan to blog about at another site!! It is something that I plan to share and help others achieve the same success I have.

Ok, well that's a chunky update for today, but let me tell you, I am having an AMAZING time!

I'm at Sbucks using WiFi and hope to get my internet at home and phone line working to start getting my businesses going! But right now I'm decompressing and I'm enjoying this vacation...

Until next time,
here is the mantra
that was doing wonders for me today:

I am the creator
I am the healer
I am free